Do you ever have periods of your life when you feel you are Being Led? It's funny, me quitting my job was scary, but little monetary "good things" kept happening. I got a ton of consulting work last summer, then we got a sizeable escrow refund...then the crap hit the fan a few weekends ago up to and including Craig losing his job. BUT, again, I have some great-paying work, Craig is free to stay with Ainslie, we are getting a REFUND from the IRS (which has never happened in our married lives), and we are planning to move to Springfield.
I have so much to do to get this house ready, especially if Craig starts a job soon (he's already got 1 interview!) and I can't even start until March because I'm just not home, but I don't feel overwhelmed; I feel strangely energized.
I think we are on the right track here. I think we are making the choices we are supposed to make. Like my friend Tammy, I am re-reading the Mitford series, and oddly, I find facets of the story speaking directly to me. Phillipians 4:13, for Pete's sake!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Thursday, February 02, 2006
They're ok without me!?
This month is going to be long. I'm traveling 14 days between February 1 and March 2. One of my babysitters is newly pregnant and may have to back out of some of the dates; my mom will be home with Craig and Ainslie for extended periods. My heart is in southwest Chicago, playing happily with other people. How did I ever find the strength to leave her every work day? Of course, she is fine--she is getting to play with Daddy and Xander, and in the next few weeks, Grammie. We've been having this conversation a lot lately:
Ainslie: Mommy airplane?
Me: Yes, mommy has to go in an airplane.
Ainslie: No Ainslie Airplane. Mommy airplane.
Me: That's right, mommy has to go by herself. Who are you going to play with while I'm gone?
Ainslie: Xander. Suzi. Xander toys! No Ainslie airplane.
Bless her heart, she almost understands!
So, here I am, halfway through Trip 1 and they are Fine. I'm so relieved. I miss her so much. I got to hear, "Awoo Mommy." last night. Awoo too, Baby, more than anything!
Ainslie: Mommy airplane?
Me: Yes, mommy has to go in an airplane.
Ainslie: No Ainslie Airplane. Mommy airplane.
Me: That's right, mommy has to go by herself. Who are you going to play with while I'm gone?
Ainslie: Xander. Suzi. Xander toys! No Ainslie airplane.
Bless her heart, she almost understands!
So, here I am, halfway through Trip 1 and they are Fine. I'm so relieved. I miss her so much. I got to hear, "Awoo Mommy." last night. Awoo too, Baby, more than anything!
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